spirals down the drain,

& here i am,
writing shitty nonsense,
while my barely-existant ass, numbs,
i want to say something monumental,
i want to speak words of brilliance,
i want to change the world with my diction,
i want to change a life.

i want to be something that nobody can resist to ignore,
i want to scream at the top of my lungs,
until your eyes roll to the back of your head,
but you don't mind it because it's the feeling of infinity crushing your ribs like bricks,

but all i managed was to murmur shitty nonsense,
crap that leaves no one awake at night,

it's not monumental,
it's not brilliant,
the world snickered at me,
and you turned your back,

i can't feel my ass now,
and i don't even care,
i wish the rest of me would become numb too.