Freakshow.

We're just a band of outsiders trying to get in. But soon we'll stop trying, and we'll realize there's no "in" and "out". There's only comfortable. And I used to be comfortable with my dearest friends, before I knew their capabilities of abandonment. I used to be comfortable when I thought I was a nobody to people who didn't matter, and everybody to people who did. I used to be comfortable loving you, when I knew nothing could go wrong. But now you've pushed me upon unfamiliar grounds. And unfamiliar always leads to uncomfortable. Just like 2 and 2 always leads to 4. Simple as that. To take my mind off of this tumult, I dipped my toes into testy waters.

But now I fear Im drowning.